I hate to write this post...it just sucks...where I'm at right now.
I have spent the better part of two days at a hospice center - trying to say goodbye to a father I never knew.
Never in a million years would I have pictured myself at the deathbed of a father who was absent my entire life.
Never would I have thought that when this day came I would be filled with so many emotions, least of all sadness.
But I am sad, and frustrated and angry at how life can switch gears on you so quickly that you feel your legs will give out from under you if you move just the slightest inch. I'm walking a fine line between all my emotions right now.
I will be back...when I am back to being myself...I'm trying to find her right now.
I will be back as soon as I can.