Monday, November 02, 2009

I'm Back Bitches!

There is nothing the body suffers that the soul may not profit by.
--- George Meredith.


These past two weeks have been confusing and heart breaking and amazingly beautiful all at the same time. I don't know why life takes the turns that it does and how invisible hands lead you down paths that you never knew existed. But what I do know is that there is a lesson in all of this...there has to be, and I know that it will not reveal itself all at once, it will unfold little by little over time. But what I do know is this; tomorrow is not promised to you, do not take for granted that you will have the chance to tell people you are sorry or that you love them or that more bluntly put, that you fucked up.


I watched as a disease that my father fully brought upon himself robbed him of his ability to speak, his ability to move, his ability to verbalize his final thoughts, his eyes had to speak for him...I'll never know if I read them correctly. He thought he had more time, but the disease moved so rapidly through his body, systematically shutting down his faculties, rendering him mute and unable to move, trapped with all his unsaid final thoughts. This is the heart breaking part, the part that will forever cause an ache at the bottom of my heart. He had more to say...yes, it shouldn't have taken him 33 years to say it, but he had more to say damn it.


Do yourself a favor...


Tomorrow set your alarm for a few minutes earlier than normal, take two minutes to wrap your arms around your husband or wife, put your head on their chest, listen to their heart, be grateful for what you have, tell them you love them.


Be a good friend. I can't thank my friends enough for all their kinds words, for sending me letters, for checking in on me, for coming to my fathers wake, for sending me wine. Thank You.


Realize that you can't change the past, but damn it you have a hand in the future. Make a better future for yourself.


Help someone who needs it. A lot of people just need a little help.


Be Good.










7 comments:

Tara TC said...

was so happy to see you reappear on my feed reader :) and this is beautiful. have been thinking about you.

Kate B said...

A beautiful sentiment. Life is precious and may be fleeting. I never part from Aron without saying I love you, as it's always in my head that it may be the last chance I have to say it to him.

AM said...

Glad you're back. We missed you.

AM said...

Have you seen this cookbook?

http://www.oprah.com/menu/food/menus/20091015-tows-tal-ronnen-vegan

I caught part of the Oprah show Tal Ronnen was on, the Gardein scallopini (spelling approximate) looked pretty good.

Lesley said...

Always good to be reminded of how precious our lives are, and to share our love every day, in every way. Glad you are back too! Now get cooking, will ya?! ;-)

JB said...

AM - I hadn't seen this before. Thanks for sendingit along. I''' check it out today.

Terri said...

Been thinking of you. Glad to see you back here. All the best.