Monday, January 09, 2012

Moving Forward

On this blog I have created 425 posts and have 115870 page views. That's awesome. This blog has seen me move from novice cook, to dappling in the vegan world, to embracing vegetarian, to weight watchers and onto wine. It also sadly, languished as I faced and fought off the hardest thing I have ever had to go through, anxiety, depression, therapy and medicine.

I don't know why this happened to me, I am sure there are lessons yet to be learned. What I do know is that I have come through it. I didn't do it alone. I had lots of help from friends, family, therapists, and yes, medication. 

My unsung hero Chris, never faltered through the entire process, never made me feel crazy, never made me feel self conscious about "needing help" even when that "help" came every night in the form of a pill. I fought what was happening to me so hard, I was not the kind of person who needed help, who needed to talk things out, and definitely not the kind of person who sought refuge with medicine. Fighting didn't help, it just prolonged the inevitable, and brought my body and mind to the breaking point in the meantime. 

I sit here today, writing this blog, a different person than I was last year. I have officially finished therapy, and have weened myself off of all medicine except for one medicine that is still helping me treat the polyps in my throat that were caused by stress - I will come off of that medicine some day.

I am now a person with a greater appreciation for allowing yourself to indulge in the small things that make life amazing everyday.  I have decided to leave this blog. It served me well, but it represents the past. I have created a new blog aptly named Champagne and Croissants - those who have read my posts from therapy will understand the name.

I've so missed everything about blogging. I cannot wait to start this new one. I hope you will follow me there, it wouldn't be the same without you.


Brenna said...

I've been thinking about you often, J. I think our struggles have been similar and I am so, so happy and hopeful to hear about your progress.

Allison said...

I can't find you! Would you please make a hot link to your new blog in this post? I'm happy to know you're doing better and moving forward. All the best to you and Chris.

JB said...

Allison. I have added a hyper link, thanks for asking for it.

Allison said...

Ok - found you, now that I have learned to spell correctly. The header on the new blog is impressively cool.

Allison said...

I have been reading you for years, and have really missed you. Glad you're back. I used to comment as AM, but updated my profile to use a name, rather than initials.

erin said...

I was just thinking yesterday that I hadn't read a post from you in a very long while! I'm so glad things are going better for you, and look forward to following the new blog.